Renew A Steadfast Spirit Within Me
The Lord has been so generous in walking me through so many lessons, that He knew I would soon need on days like today. Today I'm drawing from all of them. Today I'm wrestling with feelings of frustration, disappointment, sadness, disregarded, bitterness, anger. I could go on. The prayer of my heart tonight is Psalm 51:10, that the Lord would see me and do the work of repairing the part of my spirit that is disquieted within me. To make my spirit "steadfast" implies the act of directing or making something ready for a specific purpose . In a theological sense, it often refers to God's sovereign action in establishing His purposes and plans. Hasn't He prepared me for dealing with all of these emotions recently? Isn't He kind and gracious to have given me this as a practice run at applying all these hard lessons? It's almost like an open book test, isn't it? I have to smile even while feeling so heavy hearted. So let me review, what He has taught me....